How My Childhood Pain Became My SUPERPOWER | Jane Marie Chen

What this episode is about

In "How My Childhood Pain Became My SUPERPOWER," Jane Marie Chen discusses how her experiences of feeling powerless in childhood fueled her passion for helping others in similar situations, ultimately transforming her pain into a purposeful mission. However, she also reveals the struggles that accompanied this drive, including issues of burnout and a sense of self-worth tied to her achievements.

Key takeaways

• Transformative pain can fuel purpose, but beware: overachieving may twist worthiness into a double-edged sword.
• Surfing isn’t just a sport; it’s a lesson in surrendering to forces larger than ourselves.
• Childhood conditioning teaches us that worth depends on achievement, but true value lies in self-acceptance.
• Burnout often masquerades as passion; know when to ride the wave and when to seek calm waters.
• Memoirs reveal reinvention stories that illuminate resilience, but they also challenge us to confront our own wipeouts.

Who speaks in this episode?

• Jane Jonas (Guest)

What is discussed, and when

1. 0:00 – 10:00: Jane Jonas
2. 10:00 – 20:00: Harvard School for Public Policy, New York Times, Embrace Incubator
3. 20:00 – 30:00: New York Times
4. 30:00 – 40:00: Date with Destiny, The Body Keeps the Score, How to Change Your Mind
5. 40:00 – 50:00: Jane Jonas, The Body Keeps the Score
6. 50:00 – 1:00:00: Embrace Incubator
7. 1:00:00 – 1:09:23: You Matter Luma

Notable quotes from "How My Childhood Pain Became My SUPERPOWER | Jane Marie Chen"

• Thank you all for coming today. I'm John Miles and we are so lucky to have Jane Jonas today all the way actually from Hawaii with a little stop in between in San Francisco and New York before coming. So, thank you so much for being.

  about Jane Jonas · at 1:32

• And then you end up going from there to the Harvard School for public policy.

  about Harvard School for Public Policy · at 13:28

• That can function without electricity, that's portable, that is super easy to use. And with that, we created our product, the Embrace Incubator, which looks nothing like an incubator, looks like a little sleeping bag for a baby.

  about Embrace Incubator · at 18:38

• Whole film documents his event called Date with Destiny that happens at the end of every year. And at the end of watching the film, I wrote in my notebook, go to Date with Destiny.

  about Date with Destiny · at 32:15

• Yeah, so I had read Michael Pollen's book, How to Change Your Mind, and at that point like everyone in the Bay Area in San Francisco was talking about psychedelics to treat depression, anxiety, and so on. So I started looking.

  about How to Change Your Mind · at 35:58

• Little bit but you know on this journey I started to understand what is the science of trauma right and one of the ways I learned that was through reading the body keeps the score by bessel vanderculk and what I learned from that is trauma.

  about The Body Keeps the Score · at 38:00

• Plugging. I do have a children's book that's coming out in February. It's titled You Matter, Luma. And it basically tells the story of this young bunny named Luma who doesn't…

  about You Matter Luma · at 1:07:37

Who and what is mentioned in this episode?

People

• Jane Jonas — Person · Main guest (memoir author and social entrepreneur) · 3 mentions · first at 0:15
  Primary interview subject; discusses her childhood trauma, founding/leading a neonatal-warming startup, burnout, and healing modalities (IFS, meditation, MDMA-assisted therapy).

Books & papers

• The Body Keeps the Score — Book · Primary recommendation · 2 mentions · first at 38:07
  A book by Bessel Vanderolk that explores the science of trauma and healing, which influenced Jane Jonas's understanding of trauma.
• How to Change Your Mind — Book · Referenced work · 1 mention · first at 36:02
  A book by Michael Pollen that explores the therapeutic potential of psychedelics, which influenced Jane Jonas's healing journey.
• You Matter Luma — Book · Referenced work · 1 mention · first at 1:07:37
  A children's book by John R. Miles that promotes the message of self-worth and mattering.

Companies & orgs

• Harvard School for Public Policy — Company · Affiliation · 2 mentions · first at 13:29
  An institution where Jane Jonas studied, contributing to her background in public policy and social impact.

Products & tech

• Embrace Incubator — Product · Business focus · 2 mentions · first at 18:43
  A low-cost baby incubator developed by Jane Jonas and her team at Stanford to help premature babies in developing countries.

Places & events

• Date with Destiny — Event · Referenced work · 2 mentions · first at 32:17
  An event hosted by Tony Robbins that Jane Jonas attended as part of her healing journey.

Media & podcasts

• New York Times — Media · Referenced work · 3 mentions · first at 13:41
  A media outlet that published an article about the AIDS epidemic in China, which inspired Jane Jonas's early work in HIV/AIDS.
  Yeah. So, when I was living in Hong Kong, I actually started doing HIV AIDS work and that started because I read an article in the New York Times one day that told the story of…

Full transcript with timestamps

0:00 I finally connected the dots. Feeling so powerless through my childhood. That's what had driven me to want to help the most powerless people in the world. I had not made that connection before. So my pain had become my purpose. But it was also my shadow because it led me to working in very unhealthy ways. as I said to the point of just complete burnout because I also believe that my worth depended on what I achieved. So it wasn't just like the passion and the urgency but there was this whole thing where my worthiness and sense of enoughness was tangled up in achievement.

0:44 Welcome to Passion Struck. Hi, I'm your host John R. Miles. And on the show, we decipher the secrets, tips, and guidance of the world's most inspiring people and turn their wisdom into practical advice for you and those around you. Our mission is to help you unlock the power of intentionality so that you can become the best version of yourself. If you're new to the show, I offer advice and answer listener questions on Fridays. We have long- form interviews the rest of the week with guests ranging from astronauts to authors, CEOs, creators, innovators scientists military leaders, visionaries, and athletes. Now, let's go out there and become Passion Struck.

1:32 Thank you all for coming today. I'm John Miles and we are so lucky to have Jane Jonas today all the way actually from Hawaii with a little stop in between in San Francisco and New York before coming. So, thank you so much for being here.

1:47 Thanks for having me. For those who aren't familiar with the podcast, I've been doing it now for about 5 years. It's actually in the alternative health space and its focus is on the art and science of of human flourishing. And uh so we cover kind of all aspects of behavioral science, but we also get into functional medicine, longevity, things like that. But I love to have stories of reinvention. Those are one of my favorite topics. And so when Jane's publisher reached out, it it was and I heard it was a memoir. It was just a book that I wanted to personally read. And those are my favorite to have the authors on because I pour myself into them. And as I got more into this, it I just knew it was going to be a spectacular interview. So, thank you so much for coming.

2:35 Thank you. So, for those because we're doing a podcast here who didn't see it, we started out with an entry video that was all about Jane in the water. And your book actually starts out the book for those of you who aren't here is like a wave we break is actually her surfing at the start of it. And you're an avid surfer I understand. How did you

2:57 develop that as a passion? Well, I discovered it maybe when was this 2016. My family was in Hawaii on holiday and I just would watch the surfers and be so captivated like it was something I really wanted to try. So, I found a teacher and I I did it and I instantly fell in love with it. I just surfed the whole week, every morning. And when I went back to San Francisco, I thought, "Ah, it's too cold. I'm not going to do it." But I bought myself a wet suit and a surfboard and I just kept going. And then it it just turned into something that it wasn't just about the sport, but what the ocean taught me about letting go, about surrendering, about kind of playing with this force so much bigger than you. So, it became a philosophy as much as it was a sport.

3:46 I like the way that it started because it really serves as a metaphor for the whole book. And for anyone who's ever surfed or I I love paddle boarding, there are those moments where you kind of catch the wave and you have the perfect wave. In your case, you're trying to catch this perfect wave and then it's this enormous wave and you realize if I don't try to beat the wave, it's going to encompass me. Can you take us like back to that that moment?

4:13 I will. And in fact, I was wondering if I could just read just a little bit of the beginning of the book because it it starts with that moment. The book starts with a wipeout. At its core, a wave is pure energy moving through water. A wave breaks when that energy collides with something. A sandbar, the shore, the reef. A wave breaking is energy reaching its end. Just as I had reached my end. When I was a kid, I would climb in bed to snuggle with my dad on weekend mornings. My feet were always cold, so he tucked them under his, warming my icy toes. As the warmth flooded back into my feet, he drilled me on my timests, barking out numbers rapid fire.

4:57 7* 7, 3 * 9, 2 * 10. With each right answer, his eyes lit up. Thanks to those drills, I won all the math competitions in second grade. When I reported my wins, Dad would smile proudly. Goody, goody, he'd say, and I could feel the golden beam of his approval shining down upon me. The flip side was that when I fell short of his demands, he made sure I knew it with a belt, his hands, a nearby stick. I quickly learned that mistakes were not permissible, that what I achieved was more important than who I was, and who I was depended on what I achieved. I didn't realize how deeply those beliefs shaped me until everything fell apart.

5:49 So yes, this is the story of a wipeout. Not just the one that left me shaking on the shore that day, but the collapse of the dream I poured my soul into. When it all came crashing down, I didn't just lose a dream. I lost myself. It really is such a beautiful beginning of the book and sets the whole the whole tone for everything we're going to discuss today. Uh but before we get into your journey and your breakthrough moment, I want to start out with your parents because you are first generation immigrant from Taiwan. And when your parents were growing up, uh, this was during a a period of really profound change in Taiwan because the ruling party had kind of just moved there. And as I understand it, your father really wanted autonomy in a society that wouldn't uh provide that. So he had this long dream of getting to the United States, but it wasn't an easy journey, I understand.

6:49 Yeah. So Taiwan, I learned so much about the history of Taiwan as I wrote this book. And Taiwan was under martial law for 38 years. So it was the country under martial law for the longest period of time um until Syria surpassed that recently. And so during this period there was so much uh violence and oppression. Hundreds of thousands of people were executed, disappeared during that time. And my father really wanted autonomy and freedom. And so he moved us to America to pursue the American dream, you know, but it was it was not easy.

7:26 And my parents uh they didn't speak much English when we moved to America. Um we didn't have much family or community. So it was a very I think isolating experience for them.

7:37 One of the the parts of the book that uh really grabbed me was your father um had this huge passion for fishing and we're in one of the best areas here in Tampa in the world for fishing. So, but you saw that whole light kind of disappear in him and it happened to do with I guess a delicacy in Taiwan that isn't quite the delicacy here. Could you perhaps share that?

8:00 In Taiwan, fish heads are considered a delicacy, but in America, we don't we don't eat fish heads. And so, my father loved fishing and he would go on this boat uh to go deep sea fishing. And so every boat ride he just watched with horror as the fishermen gutted their fish, cut off the heads, and then threw them away. They're trash. And so one day with his, you know, very limited English, he worked up enough courage to ask the captain of the boat if he could keep the fish heads. And after all the men had finished their fishing and gutting and all that, they he went back to the captain and he had all these like this this bucket of fish heads and he looked at my dad and he just said, "Why would you want that?

8:46 It's trash." And he threw all the fish heads into the ocean. And I just felt so heartbroken when my father told me that story. But I think it was just, you know, in America our our treasure was considered trash. And so he stopped fishing after that, you know, and there was a lot of things that my parents face that with my mother in in Taiwanese culture, food is such a big part of the culture, right? How you greet people is have you eaten? That's a saying hello. And so my mother would prepare all of these Taiwanese delicacies for our neighbors to try to fit in and try to belong. Um, and one day a neighbor came after she had, you know, delivered all of these noodles and and dumplings and she she knocked on the door and she said, um, to my mother, I don't I didn't like any of that food. I just threw it all away. And so after that, my mother stopped interacting with the neighbors and really kept to

9:41 herself. So it was a lot of like little moments like that kind of made them withdraw more and more. Well, I understand that the food even for you as a little girl became a bit of a problem because your mom would make you rice balls and seaweed and the kids would tease tease you about it and you would have to eat these things kind of in the corner because it made you feel different.

10:06 Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. My mom would pack I love um rice balls and back then, you know, Japanese food wasn't a thing now. It's everywhere. Um, but my mom would pack me these little rice balls and packets of seaweed. It was my favorite food. And I would open my lunchbox and all the kids would be like, "Ew, what is that?" You know, now you can find it at Whole Foods, but back then that wasn't the case. And so I was so embarrassed. I just started throwing away these little packets and I would like go in the corner and like quickly eat my food so no one no one could see. as a little girl, as you're growing up, um you know, you describe your dad changing all these jobs and then you kind of describe your mom as almost being silenced. Um did you see that at as a child or was it kind of beyond your awareness? Like did they did they keep that hidden from you or was it pretty apparent to you?

11:00 No, it was really beyond my awareness. I think I was just so confused. I was born in Taiwan. We moved to America when I was four and so understanding like what is this life and this new place and this new culture and so much of it was just trying to fit in, you know, and doing anything it took to fit in. And so I don't think I had kind of a consciousness as to, you know, what was normal or unusual. I just knew I didn't really fit into either world over time because I wasn't purely American, nor was I purely Taiwanese. And I've been spending a lot of time uh myself trying to understand modern society and and right now the statistics are are pretty overwhelming. There are over 40% of high school students in the United States right now who persistently feel hopeless or sad, which is just really alarming to me that kids grow up so much of their young life feeling that uh they don't belong. And I understand um you kept

12:00 trying and trying and trying to fit in, but there was this kind of undercurrent even as you were in middle school and in high school that you got close to it, but you never quite felt like you were part of the the group. Is that a good way to

12:13 Definitely. It would take a long time for me to feel like I belonged. Yeah. And so you end up going from uh high school and uh what made you decide to go into psychology? I know your your dad often uh referred to you as Dr. Chen.

12:29 Yeah. So, my dad really wanted me to be a doctor and in Taiwan that's kind of like the highest most noble profession. Both of my grandfathers were doctors. My dad wanted to be a doctor but he didn't become one. And so, growing up, he would make me practice saying my name. He would ask me, "What's your name?" And I'd have to answer Dr. Chen. So he was trying to brainwash me from a a very early age and um I didn't become a doctor you know in an act of in an act of rebellion I became a management consultant um but I in college I decided to study psychology because it was something that was just interesting to me you know how do how do minds work? Why do people do the things they do? Um and so I pursued that path and then and then um got a job after I graduated in Hong Kong.

13:19 Actually, it was an American firm, but it was out in Hong Kong doing management consulting work. So, it was um kind of strategy consulting for these big Fortune 500 companies.

13:28 And then you end up going from there to the Harvard School for public policy. What at that point were you hoping to do?

13:34 Yeah. So, when I was living in Hong Kong, I actually started doing HIV AIDS work and that started because I read um an article in the New York Times one day that told the story of the AIDS epidemic in China. And basically what happened was in the '9s millions of poor farmers contracted HIV through selling their blood. There was this huge blood collection campaign um run by the government and but the way the blood was collected was unsanitary. So they would pull everyone's blood together, separate the plasma, which is what they needed, and then reinject every donor with the remaining red blood cells, believing it would allow them to generate blood again more quickly. And as a result of that, in these villages, 60 to 80% of the adult population became HIV positive.

14:25 So I read this and I was floored, just floored, and I thought, I have to do something to help. Now, at that time, I I didn't know what was driving me. I just felt so much compassion for these people who were, you know, absolutely powerless to do anything about their situation. And so, I quit my consulting job and um I quit my consulting job. I worked with a nonprofit that was helping to sponsor the education of children who had been orphaned by AIDS. And I spent the next few years doing that work

15:01 and saw that a small group of really dedicated, passionate people could make a difference. You know, we sponsored hundreds of students and through the visibility of that work um the Chinese government actually stepped in and and changed its policy and began to provide free education to all of the students affected in those areas, all of the orphans who were affected. And so I thought this is what I want to dedicate my life to, you know, helping others who are are powerless. And I knew I wanted to do something more. I didn't know what that was. And so I decided to go to school. And that's what led me to the Kennedy School and then to Stanford. at Stanford. Uh for for those of you who aren't familiar, I I wasn't when I first discovered this, um Stanford has a lot of degrees, but uh one of the schools that kind of sits at the the heart of the university, but isn't a degree producing aspect of it, something called

15:54 the D school, which I guess is the planner school. Uh-huh. And uh my first cousin went to Stanford and he said that everyone wants to go to the D school because the classes are so much fun and you get involved with uh so many different topics. What attracted you? I mean did you have the same experience with the D school?

16:13 I did. So I was doing my MBA at the time and I learned about the design school which it's not as John said a graduate program. All of the graduate school students can take courses there but they're so fun. And there's this one class, it's called design for extreme affordability. So the class is all about creating lowcost products or technologies for people living on less than a dollar a day. And when I heard about this, I was like, "Wow, I want I want to do this. I want to build something." And what's beautiful about it is it's inter interdisciplinary. So it's students from all the different graduate programs. So in my class of maybe 50 people, there were students from the engineering school, the medical school, the law school, right? And it's all about kind of seeing things through a fresh lens. And so that year that I took the course, one of the challenges you could work on was to build a baby

17:04 incubator that cost less than 1% of a traditional incubator, which in the US is at the time was about $20,000. and I ended up teaming up with a group of students to address this problem. So we we we took this course together. We discovered 15 million preterm and underweight babies are born every year around the world. 20 uh sorry is it 3 million babies die within the first 28 days of their life. And one of the biggest problems they face is simply staying warm or regulating their temperature. And that's the primary function of an incubator. But traditional incubators are not only expensive, they require electricity, they required um trained healthcare providers to operate them, right? And so we ended up doing research in um Nepal in India. And I remember one of the first women I met in South India, her name was Sugata. She lost her baby who was two born two months premature.

18:10 um because she had taken her baby to a village doctor who said, "You need to go to a city hospital so your baby can be placed in an incubator. That hospital was over four hours away and she didn't have the money to get there." And so her baby died. And as I traveled across India, I would hear this very same story over and over again. And so what we realized was what's needed is not just um a lowerc cost version of a tradition traditional incubator. We need something that can function without electricity, that's portable, that is super easy to use. And with that, we created our product, the Embrace Incubator, which looks nothing like an incubator, looks like a little sleeping bag for a baby.

18:52 Uh the core technology is what's called a phase change material. So, it's a wax-like substance that melts at 98°, which is what these babies need to be kept at. Once it's melted, it maintains the exact same temperature for up to 6 hours. And you just reheat it every 6 hours. It's a little pouch of wax that you tuck into the back of the sleeping bag. And that is sufficient to maintain the warmth of these babies.

19:20 That's an amazing story. And I I think because of the way you describe the planner school and having all these crossunctional people who populate it, it's it's how some of these ideas like this are birthed.

19:31 Exactly. because you have engineers working with business people working. Yeah. And none of us had medical background. None of us have ever built a product before and I think that was a real asset because it took kind of looking at the problem with an outside lens to come up with something so different.

19:48 And then I I understand uh it was like an initial team of three of you and then you had another uh friend who ended up joining you. But you decided instead of incubating the incubator in the United States, you end up moving to India.

20:02 Yeah. On what you thought was going to be a year turned out to be a little bit longer than that. Can you can you talk a little bit about that journey?

20:10 Sure. So we uh wrapped up the class and initially none of us thought we were going to take it forward, but we knew we had a good idea and we knew if we didn't do it, no one else would. So, we started applying to different business plan competitions all around the US to try to get some funding. We lost all of them. Um, and it was I remember was a week before I graduated from Stanford. We still had no money. I had no job. I hadn't even looked for any other jobs. And then that final week of of school, we won two uh competitions at the same time that gave us our first bit of money. And with that, we thought, let's go to India. And the reason is India's home to 40% of all the world's premature babies. And in design thinking, what we had learned is the most important part of solving a problem is empathy, right? How do you stand in the shoes of your customer? How do you truly see the world through their

21:08 perspective? And so we had built this product based on that early research. But to get it into the world, we believed we had to be in the environment it was going to be used in, right? to really breathe the air and be in the culture and all of that. And so we said, "Let's do it." We packed our bags, we moved to India, we thought it'll just be a year, you know, and when I go back to our early business plans, it's like pure comedy now because we thought in a year we could raise all this money, figure out manufacturing, distribute our product all over the world, and then, you know, I could come home to America, you know. And I ended up being there for four years. And at that point, you know, we had just barely touched the tip of the iceberg.

21:50 And and what part of India were you in? I was in Bangalore. So that's South India.

21:54 Has anyone in the room ever been to India? I I' I've been there uh 24 25 times and I I've been throughout all all the country including Bangalore. But it it is it's it's a really I don't know how to describe it. It's a beautiful country and it's uh got amazing people, but at the same point it it's a a huge disparity between the halves and the halves not.

22:20 Um and I I saw it in some communities more than others, but I was in real rural areas like like you're talking about where um where they basically had nothing and were living in basically makeshift that it's not even tents. It would I can't even describe it. almost seemed like cardboard boxes practically.

22:40 Yeah. To then in Bangalore where you've got super cities of technology. So it it really is a

22:47 Yeah. Um so I understand that over time the the product then emerges in 25 or so countries. Is that accurate?

22:58 Yeah. So um it was it took us a few years to continue developing the product and then do the clinical testing figure out manufacturing um and nothing went according to plan right India is a very very hard country to operate in but we couldn't find a manufacturer that met our quality standards for example so we ended up having to build our own manufacturing facility from scratch we couldn't find the right distributor so we built out our own distribution team but every step along the way we faced so many challenges. Um, but we finally got the product out there and that was the most rewarding part of the journey. I'll just share one story. So, uh, early on, maybe just a few weeks after we launched the product, we donated a few incubators, um, to an orphanage and they called us a few days later saying they had found a baby who was abandoned on a street who weighed less than 2 lb. He had already

23:58 gone for days without food or water. They weren't sure if he was going to survive. So, they kept him in our incubator for weeks and he did survive. 7 months later, I visited the orphanage and I held him in my arms. A few months after that, he was adopted by family in Chicago. And I remember that just being one of the happiest days of my life, you know. But there are so many stories like that. And it was like deeply deeply rewarding to me. every family we could help, every baby we could help. That's what gave me the motivation to keep moving forth even though it was so challenging.

24:34 And and if I have it correct, it it wasn't like you were just going from one part of India to the other. You went to Beijing if the baby is correct. And then

24:44 you actually got to meet him um when he was 13 again. Uh yeah. Yeah, I got to meet him um actually last year. He and his so I kept in touch with his family over the years and last year they came to visit me in Hawaii where I live now and um I took him surfing. I'm obsessed with surfing. And it was so surreal to like watch him and think about 13 years earlier holding him in my arms, not knowing what tomorrow was going to look like for him, you know, to to like all these years later he's catching waves with me in Hawaii, you know, it was it was such an amazing and surreal experience.

25:26 So this startup idea that a bunch of social entrepreneurs starts becoming a global phenomenon and you're in the New York Times, you're lauded by President Obama. I earlier on the screen there was a check uh I think it was for 500,000 that Beyonce gives you in person. I mean you're on cloud9. You have to think like we're here saving the world. What was that moment like?

25:51 Yeah. Well, it was all of it. It was thrilling and we started to not only make impact but to get a lot of acclaim in the media. I was named a TED fellow. I became a TED speaker. I was a young global leader of the World Economic Forum. We got the economist innovation award and the fast comp company innovation award and you know all of these honors which was incredible. Um but on the inside I was really struggling. You know, it was so exhausting. And those years I lived in India, I never took a weekend off. I worked 80 to 100 hour weeks. I didn't make a single friend the entire four years I lived there because I was working around the clock, you know, and it was a combination of a it was so much more challenging than we had anticipated. So, we would have things crop up constantly, fires that I needed to put out. Um, and then it felt it felt so hard to take time for myself because of the nature of what we were working

26:50 on. Like I would think, oh my gosh, if I stop and I take a break, lives are on the line. Babies are dying here, right? And so for years my mantra was embrace my company. Embrace first, me second. Take care of the company first, and when it gets to a good place, then I can take care of myself. And what that ended up leading to was just complete and utter burnout.

27:15 And then it was not only yourself burning out, the company itself started to burn out. So here here you are, you've invested and sacrificed uh your life, your relationships to try to build this company and about 10 years in it starts falling apart. like what what what ended up happening and and

27:35 yeah, you know, did things also start unraveling between the founders too or or what what happened?

27:42 I mean there was always starting a company is really hard and doing something like we were doing. Yes, there was always like that conflict but we stuck together pretty well as a team but like I said we would face everything from manufacturing challenges to distribution challenges. We quickly realized the economics of this just didn't work out for us to manufacture and distribute a single product on our own. So we had an offer from Philips Healthcare to become our global distributor. So we thought this is the answer, you know, and I was so excited cuz this was like 6 years in and I'd been working so hard and I thought this is the thing that will help us really be sustainable, you know, and make impact.

28:21 We worked on this deal for nine months and right before signing the deal, the CEO of the healthcare company stepped down and she had been the main advocate for the deal. So the whole the deal was shut down. They pulled a plug on it and that meant we didn't have a distributor or the funding to continue our work. So that was kind of the first of many setbacks and with that we had to, you know, we had to pivot. We had to figure out a new business strategy. We ended up launching a US consumer product at one point and then ultimately we ran out of funding and so we had a potential um acquisition offer on the table. This is another thing we worked on for 6 months.

29:02 This time we actually signed all of the paperwork and the day that deal was supposed to be completed we found out the acquiring firm was shutting down.

29:11 Wow. And so that left us with without the funding to continue. And now this is like 10 years in. I was beyond burned out. And I just did not see a way forward at this point.

29:24 And I remember at this point in the book, you talk about being on an airplane and in flight and it's like you're trying to process your whole life and and what's going on. Can can you take us to that that moment and and what's going through your mind? I just um I I felt shattered really. I felt so broken in in mind, body and spirit, you know. I um I was exhausted and I I had given everything. I had sacrificed everything for this. And so I felt like I had failed, you know, I had failed this mission. And there was a part to truth be told there was a part of me that didn't want to do it anymore because I I was so exhausted and I knew that and I had tried to step down and pass the torch um to another CEO, but it just it didn't work out and I kept getting pulled back into it. So there's a part of me that knew I was exhausted and then this other part of me that felt like I just failed. I just I

30:23 was an utter failure. And so at this point I I would really I I'd say I had a mental breakdown and the only thing I could think was I need to get away from everything to find myself again.

30:38 At this point as much as the company was spiraling, you say kind of that you're you were going through your own spiral of rediscovering yourself and you decided you were going to put as much effort into trying to heal yourself as you did in this company. Yeah,

30:53 I understand at the start of this or kind of towards the end of this journey, a person from Tony Robbins organization reaches out because Tony, if you're familiar with them, puts money in into causes that he believes in and and he had heard of Embrace and wanted to invest in it. But I understand this uh went from an investment moment to a a Tony mentorship type of moment. Is that an accurate way to

31:21 Yes. So, it's it's really interesting because everything came crashing down and I was forced to just surrender, let go. And when that happened, magic started to happen in my life. So, basically, I at that point, I packed up a surfboard and a suitcase and I bought a one-way ticket to Indonesia and I thought, I am just going to pour myself into healing because I feel so broken. So, I put on my kind of CEO hat and I was like, I'm going to heal the out of myself. Um, but right before leaving, I turned on Netflix and I came across a film about Tony Robbins. I didn't know much about Tony at the time, but I watched this film and it's called I'm Not Your Guru. And I just cried my eyes out from beginning to end. And there was something about Tony's authenticity, you know, and his his love for people and wanting to help people. And so the whole film documents his event called Date with Destiny that happens at the

32:19 end of every year. And at the end of watching the film, I wrote in my notebook, go to Date with Destiny. And then I forgot about it. So I go to Indonesia and 3 weeks into my trip, I receive a phone call completely out of the blue from a man named Jonathan. And he says to me, "I work with Tony Robbins. Tony and I just found out about your company. We'd like to make an investment and Tony would like to invite you to date with Destiny as his guest. So, of course, I went um I met Tony, I met his team and uh we can go into it later. They ended up playing an instrumental role in resurrecting Embrace. Uh but more importantly that kind of started me on my healing journey, you know, and everything I learned about Tony. And one of the things Tony often says is life happens for you, not to you. And so this moment that was like rock bottom for me, I started thinking how how could this be for me? You know, what am I supposed to

33:27 learn here? And I ended up going into this very deep healing journey that in which I started to uncover the wounds that were driving me and what I needed to heal from.

33:39 I wanted to to to go through some of the modalities that she went through because I I found as I was reading the book, it was pretty interesting journey. So a lot of us I I do uh I I've done m mindfulness uh for years. I I like to do it first thing in the morning on my walks, but you kind of took it to a different extreme. uh you were going to these retreats, one of them in Indonesia, another one you did where you you're going for days without talking to anyone. So you would, if I have it right, you you wake up at like 4:00 in the morning and until about 10:00 at night, you're in solitary

34:16 Yeah. confinement almost. Yes. So these are called um vapasa retreats and they're silent meditations. So these are 10day silent meditations and I decided to do one in the jungle of Indonesia. So, you're um in complete silence for 10 days. No reading, no writing, no eye contact, no exercise, nothing. Uh you wake up at 4:00 a.m. You meditate until 1000 p.m. every day. So, it's a very kind of militant, intense form of meditation. And I had done my first one in Hawaii years before that. And and it was amazing. Um uh and so so I went I decided to do it in Indonesia.

34:55 And the whole idea of it is to teach you about impermanence, right? To teach you that everything comes and go. So if you're sitting there and your knees start to ache, well, if you if you just sit with that, that's going to come and go. That pain will come and go. All of our physical sensations are impermanent.

35:14 And so when you start to understand that, you you become unattached to any particular moment or sensation because you know it will pass, right? So that's kind of the premise of it. But I did it in a very very extreme way.

35:29 Yes, you did. Well, and as I kept going through, that wasn't the only thing you did in extremes. It's like everyone you went into extremes. So, I I end up at at this point, uh, you want to start looking at psychedelics, but you you don't just want to look at psychedelics, you start to search out like the the brainchild of of it all. um can you talk about that story and and how it kind of led you on a journey to MDMA?

35:58 Yeah, so I had read um Michael Pollen's book, How to Change Your Mind, and at that point like everyone in the Bay Area in San Francisco was talking about psychedelics to treat depression, anxiety, and so on. So I started looking into the clinical studies, and it was amazing, right? for um MDMA in particular, we often think of it as this party drug, but there's been years of research showing its effect on PTSD, particularly for veterans. And what the research showed was just this incredible uh result of just three sessions of MDMA could get people off of the PTSD scale.

36:37 So, I became really fascinated with that modality and um that was one of the things I tried that was actually incredibly helpful for me.

36:45 I'm not sure if anyone's familiar with the the research. I've I've had a number of experts on the podcast both with um psilocybin and MDMA, but uh they're now using it in the the VA and typical talk therapy has an efficacy of somewhere around 30 30 to the high 30%. But what they're finding with the psychedelics is that it's uh 70% and at times 80 to 85% with uh longlasting um results. So um

37:18 I forget I think MDMA is in uh is in uh third phase clinical and psilocybin's in second phase. So in in the future both of these will be uh will will both be regulated uh for for treatment. Uh but like you're saying it it's not as if you're just you're you're given it on on your own. It's it's typically done in a very

37:40 controlled environment. Yes. It's done in a controlled environment. It's done with the help of a guide or a therapist. Um and you're working with a therapist leading up to it as well. So it's not just this one moment, but it's all the work you're doing up until that point. And one of the reasons it's so effective if I could talk about the science of trauma a little bit but you know on this journey I started to understand what is the science of trauma right and and one of the ways I learned that was through reading the body keeps the score by bessel vanderculk and what I learned from that is trauma is not just something that happened in the past that stays in the past and that's what I had thought most of my life right difficult things I went through I just wanted to kind of brush them under the rug and move on trauma actually rewires your brain and your nervous system. So, it's the way you're

38:30 bringing the past into the present. And trauma is also stored in our limbic brains. We have three parts of our brain. There's the reptilian brain, right, which is responsible for our most basic functions. The limbic brain, which is where all of our emotions are stored and our bodily sensations. And then there's the neoortex, that's our thinking brain. Trauma is stored in the limbic brain. But talk therapy happens in our thinking brain. And so that's why I believe some of these um modalities including psychedelic psychedelics that allow us to kind of go deeper into our consciousness and into our emotions are more effective than things that are just at the level of the intellect. Right?

39:16 And so through that I really started to explore what had happened to me growing up. And there was a lot of physical violence in my childhood. And I remember there was one incident in particular when I was 12 years old. Um I came home from school one day and I decided to read my history book on the front lawn. It was a beautiful sunny day. When my father came home and he saw this, he flew into a rage. He decided homework shouldn't be done on a lawn. It should be done at a desk. And so he beat me and he demanded that I apologize.

39:59 I refused because for the first time in my life, I knew I had done nothing wrong. I also knew that I was totally powerless in that moment. And so as I went on this healing journey, I finally connected the dots. Feeling so powerless through my childhood. That's what had driven me to want to help the most powerless people in the world. I had not made that connection before, you know. So, my pain had become my purpose. But it was also my shadow because it led me to working to in very unhealthy ways as I said to the point of just complete burnout because I also believe that my worth depended on what I achieved. So it wasn't just like the passion and the urgency, but there was this whole thing where my worthiness and sense of enoughness was tangled up in achievement. So, going back to your your childhood, um uh one of the the stories that I remember from the book is uh you you described like there'd be cold

41:07 mornings uh where you would jump into bed with your dad and and he would kind of cover you and warm up your toes,

41:13 but it was kind of conditional like he he would quiz you um and if you were doing everything that he wanted, you would get his love. if you were doing things that went against what he kind of desired in his mind that you should be fulfilling, it was met with pretty much 180 degrees um

41:35 the opposite. Is is that a good way to kind of frame it? Yeah. Do do you ever feel like it part of what was happening to you is they is he was taking out his own frustrations and unmet dreams on you and hoping you would fulfill what he hadn't been able to.

41:52 I think so. I think it took me a long time to piece it together, you know, and in the book I talk about I think there is a part of that and I think that's what's so confusing for a child when there is no kind of clear cause and effect and the things that would happen there are very innocent acts like reading my history book in the wrong part of the house the punishment felt very disproportionate and so I think as a child what happens is you end up believing there's something wrong with me and so that was the sense that I had that No matter how as I grew up, no matter how many degrees I got or babies I saved or how much recognition I received, there was still this sense of like not enough, not enough. And I think this is I've started to see this that sometimes our trauma can get channeled into this this drive, right? Because we feel like we need to prove more and be more and do more. So I actually see this

42:44 with a lot of high achievers who have kind of early wounding. It manifests itself in this way. I think it's extremely it's extremely confusing as a child. But in the book, I also explore just intergenerational trauma and the fact that my father had grown up in a certain way. And so that was what he knew. That doesn't make it right. But through the process of writing the book and understanding my broader story, you know, I I I developed a lot of compassion for him and for my family. Um but still those effects for me as a child, I needed to confront that. And it's something I think when we have painful experiences, something I've really learned in this process is the power of allowing ourselves to feel all of our feelings, right? And research shows that when we have painful emotions, we try to avoid them through social media, overworking, drinking, whatever it might be. But when we suppress our emotions, they don't go

43:43 away. They later resurface more intensely, right? often as an anxiety or or depression. And so there's something really really important about pausing long enough to allow ourselves to feel our heartbreak, you know, wherever that might come from. But just sitting with that then allows us to move through it.

44:08 Yeah. And if if anyone in the room is interested in exploring this more, there are three really good books. Um, I I I've had all all three of the authors on on the podcast, but one would be Susan Kane's book, Bittersweet, does an excellent job of exploring uh painful emotions and why they're so valuable. Another one is Liz Fosland, and she has a a book she co- wrote called Big Feelings, which is a great book on this. And then the last one would be Ethan Cross, who runs the psychology uh program at University of Michigan, and he just came out with a new book as well. So all all three of those are excellent books if you want to explore that a little bit more.

44:49 Yeah. So I I was hoping we could just talk about INF a little bit because I know that this is something that uh is important to you.

44:56 Yes. Before we get to IFS, I'll just mention one of the things that happened after I read The Body Keeps the Score. I became so obsessed with the author Bessel Vanderolk that um as as my overachiever self would do, I basically stalked him until he agreed to become my therapist. and he said no to me about six times and Bessel's like 83 now. He wasn't taking new clients but I kind of kept at it and so working with him was one of the most g you know life-changing things for me because he really created the space for me to acknowledge some very very difficult things and in writing the book it was really interesting because I went back and I watched dozens of our therapy videos. It is horrifying to watch your own therapy videos, by the way. But I and I started to see what was happening in our exchange. And um there's something about I think healing happens in community. It doesn't happen on our

45:56 own. And there's something about the other person holding that space for you, you know, or moments where I didn't I would tell a story and not even realize it was sad. And Bessel would just pause me and he would look so sad or he would take a deep breath and then I would take a deep breath,

46:15 you know. And I think it's why that it's why I don't believe a AI bot or chat GPT therapy can replace a human because of that empathetic resonance that we need to heal. And so that work with Bessel just gave me kind of the space and the empathy from someone else to to dive deep into some of these very painful things. And one of the things Bessel introduced me to was a practice called internal family systems or parts work. It's founded um there are many variations of this but there's a uh a man Dick Schwarz who wrote a book called No Bad Parts that I highly recommend for anyone interested in this. The premise of IFS is that we all contain a multitude of parts. So there are parts that emerge to protect us, right? So John, you might have your overachiever part or the control freak or the perfectionist. I'm making this all up.

47:19 Um, I had those parts in me. I have this warrior part that one of my exes nicknamed Jenus Con. So we have these parts who are there to protect us from some of the more difficult emotions. And we also have these parts that the practice called exiles. So a part of you that might have felt rejected when you were young or abandoned or really scared and alone, right? And because we don't want to face those feelings, the these protectors or managers come in and they do all these things, right? The overachiever comes in and tries to prove to everyone that we are enough to protect the part of us that feels like we're not enough. And the whole goal of this practice is to develop to get to know your parts and then develop compassion for them. Not to banish them or shame them, but to have love and compassion and to thank the parts for the role they've played in our lives. Right? And so one of the parts I

48:16 discovered was this little girl inside me was so scared that she wasn't enough. For years I wanted everyone else to show her that she was worthy. At one point I became obsessed with this modality called a psycho drama. So, it's a a group therapy where you pick people to kind of play the roles of your parents and you reenact what happened and then you pick a different set of people and they play the role of your ideal parents and the idea is to kind of give yourself a more ideal version of what could have happened which can be very very healing.

48:58 So, I became obsessed with the idea of finding an ideal father, thinking if I just heard the things I needed to hear when I was young, I would be healed. At one point, I even enlisted a man who looked like Santa Claus to play the role of my ideal father. Turns out the big jolly white man was not my ideal father. Um but at towards the end of the book in in this um journey that I did I I I picked the perfect ideal father hand selected a friend to play the role. I wrote out every sentence I wanted him to say to me and we you know we we went through this and he said all the lines he said them perfectly and I still felt nothing.

49:41 So, finally, I picked up this photograph of me as a 5-year-old, and I finally said all the things that she needed to hear, and I said, "I'm so sorry. You didn't deserve that. You are worthy and you're loved." And she finally believed me. And so that's when I realized that resilience is about self-love and self-compassion, right? All the things we're looking for out there, they have to come from within here or else the goalpost keeps moving and nothing's going to be enough. But when we believe deep in our bones that we're enough outside of our achievements, outside of our purpose, outside of how many likes we get on social media, that is true resilience because then no matter what happens out there, we can brush ourselves off and we can keep going. You know, we can take risks and fail and know that we're going to be okay when we have this inner sense of worthiness.

50:48 No, it it's it's beautiful and it it gets back to what I was talking about at the beginning with so many high school kids who are expressing these feelings that they are, but it it's happening years and years before that. So, the time to intervene really is when children are, you know, 3 to to to 10 years old is is where this kind of gets reinforced. And we're living in this perpetual um aspect of society where so many adults today feel like they're not enough and they're invisible in their own lives. And then uh because they don't they're not showing up for themselves, they're not showing up for their kids and it just keeps perpetuating the cycle. Um and that's a that that that's pretty much where I spend uh a tremendous amount of my time researching.

51:36 Yeah. I'm curious like how many people in this room have ever felt like they weren't enough? Right. It's just it's it's all of us have felt this and it's something I feel so passionate about because addressing this and and working with people on that their inner wholeness because I think the relationship we have with ourselves is the foundation for every relationship in our lives. When we have self-compassion, we can more easily extend that to others, you know. And I I don't like to talk about politics, but there's like I think there are some um traumatized people, you know, in leadership roles in our country today.

52:18 And I think when we don't address our our inner trauma and our inner wounds, we tend to lead from a place of fear and ego and control, right? Whereas when we do have that inner sense of worthiness, then we can lead from a place of love and compassion and purpose. So I really just believe in this so much. And I think if every child felt safe and loved, our world would look so different. And I think that goes to the inner child in each of us.

52:52 Yeah. I mean, you what you're saying is a great point. Has anyone ever heard of General Stan Mcristel? He led all forces in Afghanistan at one point and I was interviewing him about his leadership style and and he calls it ambitious. He's really big on this eyes on handsoff leadership and his whole thinking is if I'm here at at Sentcom in Tampa and I'm trying to lead a Green Beret team or a SEAL team and they're doing direct action, it's impossible for me to micromanage them. So, as a leader, I have to um give them enough so that they understand the aspects of what mission success looks like. I have to train them in order to do it, but I need to to let go of my ego and trust that they're going to make the right decisions based on uh the situation that they're facing.

53:45 And it's my job to have them properly prepared. But if you let the ego get in, then you start to try to micromanage everything, watch them from drones, satellites, everything else. And then you take up take over operational control and start interfering with the real-time decisions that they're making. And I think you can apply that in so many different different ways.

54:08 But it kind of goes to what you were you were saying. Yeah, that's such a good point. And I think there's a health the difference between um kind of healthy striving, right? Of course, we want to achieve goals and there's things we want to do and it's it's good to have all of that. And then when it becomes unhealthy is when we have this sense of like we should do it or or doing that's going to prove our worthiness, right? That's kind of when it starts to get into that zone of of unhealthy striving. And there's kind of a fine line between the two. But for me now, it's like I have I just came out with this book. It's the probably the scariest thing I've ever done. It's so vulnerable. And of course I wanted to do well and and I really wanted to impact people and bring hope and healing to others. I've put five years of my life into it. Um but there's something to be said of like letting go as well,

54:57 right? Like we're not in control. So the way I define success now is very different from how I used to define success. And it's really about less about outcomes and more am I living my values? Am I living with love every day? Am I giving to other people? am I growing? And those are all things we can control, right? So, as long as I'm doing those things, the outcomes don't matter as much. Um, a couple weeks ago, a friend came out to Hawaii to do a little ceremony with me around the book, and at the end of it, I only had one copy of the book at that time, and I threw it into the ocean.

55:36 And it was just this beautiful act of surrender, right? that I've given my soul to this and now I'm going to let the waves take the message to where it needs to go.

55:46 Did you want to read another excerpt from the book? Yeah. Can I? Okay. Will this be the final excerpt or this will be the final? Okay.

55:54 Because you you kind of bookend the book starting out with water. Yes. And you kind of end there too.

56:00 Yeah. Okay. Let me just read it short. It is easy to believe that we are defined by our circumstances, by the wounds of our past, by family, by fate. But circumstances, however powerful, are just the waves rising, crashing, ever changing. Beneath their churning, lies something steady, infinite. No matter what we have endured, no matter where we've come from, our essence remains. And that essence is love, unconditional and limitless. We are not the waves, but the sea itself. The waves will always come. They will rise. They will crash. And at times, they will pull me under. There will always be forces beyond my control.

56:58 Moments that threatened to swallow me whole. But now I know the way back. Back to the surface. Back to myself. When I wipe out, I know I will rise again. Even when my lungs burn. Even when my skin is scraped raw from the ocean floor. The voice that once taunted, "You're so stupid you should die." has been replaced by something softer and stronger. You got this. You are enough. I journeyed to the corners of the world, seeking the love I thought I was missing. I sought it in conference rooms and straw huts, in silent meditation retreats and crowded seminars, in therapy, in medicine.

57:49 I searched for it in the rhythm of waves, in the fire of rituals, in the stillness and the storm, only to discover it was always already within me. Love is not a distant shore. It's the current that courses through us. Healing is not about fixing ourselves. It's about embracing who we are. the mess, the chaos, the grief, the fear, the heartbreak. It's not about erasing our pain, but finding the courage to hold ourselves through it. Like a wave, we break. Like an ocean, we can never be broken.

58:40 Thank you so much for sharing that. So, Jane, what is next for you? Yeah. Well, as I mentioned, I'm so passionate about helping people find their most authentic selves, their most aligned selves. So, over the last couple years, I've been doing leadership coaching. This year, I stepped down from Embrace. So, Embrace was saved. Um Tony Robbins played a critical role in that. You guys will have to read the book to find out what happened, but we reached a million babies this year.

59:10 Congratulations. Thank you. Oh yeah. So I I stepped down. I handed the torch to a new CEO and um with the book I'm I'm really stepping more into doing leadership coaching and uh there's actually um I'll give you guys I have a little bookmark with a QR code, but for people who are interested in going on their own healing journey, I have a bunch of free resources. Um parts work has been so important to me that I developed uh an exercise that you can download on my website if you want to try it on yourself. And um I'm doing uh leadership coaching both for individuals and for corporations as well. And so my hope is that in helping people lead their most authentic life, that compassion they find for themselves can ripple out into the world and into everyone that they work with. And so that's what's next for me. Um in the in the long run, I know I want to work directly with kids who are who have

1:00:05 trauma, who have been victims of abuse and neglect. Um and so there's a lot of um volunteer work that I'm doing on the side with that. Um but my whole mission now, as I said, is to ensure that we live in a world where every child feels safe and loved.

1:00:23 I'm going to open it up for questions in just one second. I'm going to do one bonus question.

1:00:28 Yeah. So I have heard a lot about this frog poison and I can't leave this discussion without understanding a little bit more like what was that ceremony like and and how painful is it?

1:00:41 Yeah. So frog poison this is an Amazonian practice where they basically burn holes in your leg for women. It's a different part of the body for men. And then they sprinkle desiccated frog poison into these holes and it's supposed to help purge toxins out of your body and and purge your past. Um I ended up purging everything I'd ever eaten in my entire life. And so you kind of vomit into this bucket, you know, 10 15 times and then you're running to the bathroom. And it was very intense. Um, it was not my preferred healing modality, but that's one of the the many things that that

1:01:22 So, that's something you'd be running to do again. Yeah. Yeah. Not something I'd be running to do again. Um, but just for your podcast listeners, coming back to your other question, for folks that are interested in doing I'm doing a bunch of um uh leadership workshops for for corporates as well. And so, folks can find me on my website at janemariechen.com.

1:01:42 Awesome. Well, I'm gonna open it up for for questions uh from you all. Do you have any?

1:01:49 Just regarding leadership and corporations, etc. And you brought up a few times about high schoolers and the anxieties they face and I see that at college level.

1:02:02 Can you imagine creating something for leadership with a younger audience? Definitely, I would love that as well. It's something that I've been thinking about um that's probably longer term, but I would love to develop curriculum and programs that can be integrated kind of in the education system, right? Because I wish I these are so many things that I wish I knew when I was younger and I would think I could have lived a very different life if I had. And so, how do we start to yeah teach some of these things in the school system? We're starting to see things like meditation come up into some school systems. But I think there's there's something more there. Yeah. That kind of helps people feel enough. And I think especially in this age of social media, right, where even more so than ever before, we think we have to like look a certain way or be a certain way to feel loved. Like how do we combat that,

1:02:59 right? And and help kids early on with that sense of of wholeness and enoughness. Yeah, it's a great idea

1:03:08 just foring and I think your work will your story will help others. Um there are times

1:03:17 um I know especially in the future will help me um in the presence of people trying to help with people who've been trafficked which unfortunately in our area that's a big

1:03:28 big thing. Um, and I know you could say something, but I know people aren't ready to hear it, right? If they don't believe it, that they're worthy.

1:03:37 Yes. Um, what are Do you have any ideas like what are some words you could say that would diminish what they've been to or would be like toxic positivity? I just think a lot of us don't want to say something instead of just being silent with them,

1:03:54 but we don't know what to say. Yeah. um any suggestions where where do you even begin?

1:04:00 So I guess that so I I can repeat it for the YouTube is uh you you were saying in the area we live in Tampa Bay unfortunately we have a high um occurrence of human trafficking going on and and there we have many victims. So what do you say to someone who has uh faced that in their lives and feels that they're not they're not worthy?

1:04:23 Yeah. You know I think it's it's in my mind you're right. I think until someone's ready to receive a message, it's hard to say something that will be received. And so I think the the key is to is acceptance and helping someone feel like all of their feelings are valid, whatever those feelings are, right? And so it's creating that safe space for someone to feel the shame, the rejection, the abandonment, all of those. I think that is the the most important. And there's something about your presence in being with someone that can allow them to be seen and validated. And it's I think it's even less about the words and more about that space you create and the energy that you give to somebody. Yeah.

1:05:12 Such a great question. Thank you. So, do you have any desire to be a mother or plan to be a parent? Oh, that's a that's that's a very personal question.

1:05:24 All his love for saving lives and making sure they are nurtured and and valued versus strangers versus your own.

1:05:35 I don't know. It's not something I've never felt like a huge calling to do that to be honest. I'm not closed to it, but it's not something that has been in the cards for me yet. I'll put it that way. But I explore this a lot in in the book. And with everything I've been through, I think intimacy has been very challenging for me. And it's been hard to feel safe in intimacy. And so this is something I've struggled with and this healing journey has helped me to feel just more safe in my own body so that I can feel safe with others. So I don't know, it's a big question for me. But, you know, as I was writing this book, a lot of the book happened real time. Like the last third of the book, I was writing about it as I was living it. This is not one of those memoirs that you're writing like 20 years later and you're reflecting on your past. And so, as I was writing it, I'd kind of wonder, I wonder how that, you know, I wonder how

1:06:35 this is going to end. And maybe I'll, you know, meet my prince charming and like live happily ever after and all of that. And that's not that's not the end of the book. And I actually am really grateful for that because the end of the story in the book is really finding myself. And to me that that's the most important thing.

1:06:59 It's the beginning. Yeah. It's the beginning. It's the beginning. Exactly. It's the end of book. It's the beginning of a whole new journey, you know, and a whole new way of being for me.

1:07:08 Yeah. Wow. Thank you for asking that though. You guys are welcome to ask anything. Well, Laura, thank you so much for for having us here at the Oxford Exchange and thank you all for coming.

1:07:24 Thank you. We do have books downstairs in the bookstore. Um, and we will have them continually in the bookstore if you'd like any signed copies. Thank you so much, John.

1:07:32 Thank you. Thank you, John. My wife will tell you I don't do enough plugging. I do have a children's book that's coming out in February. It's titled You Matter, Luma. And it basically tells the story of this young bunny named Luma who doesn't feel like she's worthy and doesn't feel like her stories matter. And so it tells the story of her journey with a guide I call Oliver who's a wise owl who kind of guides her into finding her voice and sharing it amongst uh her force friends. And it's part of something larger that we're building called the mattering verse, which is a Pixar-like ecosystem of books, stories, in the future, films, applications, other things to try to create a universe for children to feel like their lives do matter and carry worth.

1:08:29 I love that. Yeah. So cool. Coming out in a in a few months. Oh, I love that. Yeah. Yeah. And this is um day five I think of my book launch. So if the story resonates with you, my ask is you share with friends, gift it for the holidays, write a review, but just anything to help me get the word out. Thank you guys.

1:08:50 Yes. Thank you. And I just wanted to say she has some great advanced praise from Tony Robbins, Mark Beni off, who I've known for years, Adam Grant, Laura Love Harden, and Bessel. Yeah.

1:09:04 So, great endorsers. Thank you. Oh, thanks.

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Who speaks in "How My Childhood Pain Became My SUPERPOWER | Jane Marie Chen"?

Jane Jonas (Guest).

What is "How My Childhood Pain Became My SUPERPOWER | Jane Marie Chen" about?

In "How My Childhood Pain Became My SUPERPOWER," Jane Marie Chen discusses how her experiences of feeling powerless in childhood fueled her passion for helping others in similar situations, ultimately transforming her pain into a purposeful mission. However, she also reveals the struggles that accompanied this drive, including issues of burnout and a sense of self-worth tied to her achievements.

What is mentioned in this John R. Miles episode?

8 people, works and ideas are mentioned, including Jane Jonas, Embrace Incubator, The Body Keeps the Score, Harvard School for Public Policy, How to Change Your Mind, New York Times. Each one on this page links to its own page with every episode that mentions it.

How long is "How My Childhood Pain Became My SUPERPOWER | Jane Marie Chen"?

The episode runs 1 h 9 min; the transcript is about 12,135 words in 132 timestamped sections.

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